I wrote a few that are longer term and require some effort.  Here are some things that I should change that really require minimal effort but are difficult to achieve.

• Flossing daily.  I’m about a 2 flosser a week currently but it was usually never the till a year or two ago and my dentist yelled at me and I just decided I’ll try to do a better job.  I could obviously make it happen but I always forget on weekends and that’s about 3/7 of the week and the other half is whenever I remember.  No reason for bleeding gums
• Using fluoride.  I just hate it beyond belief.  It tastes horrible and then you can’t eat for 30 minutes after and the minute I have to swish it around is usually the worst minute of my day.  Restoring enamel can suck my left nut.
• Changing my diet and eating healthier, in conjunction with not spending for most meals.  The majority of meals I eat are taken from the freezer, put in the oven, and cooked for 30 minutes.  Never any veggies or fruits.  It’s fried chicken or pizza and I could do a better job mixing it up a bit.  However I will add that I don’t really drink soda and I very rarely eat dessert like ice cream or brownies.  It’s funny when Jess Baker or Jill bring baked goods they just hang out because I just don’t partake in that.  I also should make breakfast or bring lunch because I the cash I spend on lunch certainly adds up when I do it 10x a week.
• Keeping things cleaner and more organized.   There’s really no excuse to having things filthy and out of place.  People who lack self pride and have no discipline are the culprits and even though I’m aware of this trait, I still could do a better job.  I don’t have a spotless attitude but things that are neat just tend to have a better outcome and a little effort over time makes this happen.
• Keep a daily log.  It’s not unusual the world log is in blog but I think if I had a notepad in my pocket and wrote down things I thought about during the day, I’d have more things to check up on and more concise thoughts.  JC would be the ultimate influence on this bullet point and I agree with him as I’ve gotten older, if you write it down, it has a better chance of getting done.
• Read more books and do more research.  It’s embarrassing when you don’t know who the Secretary of State is (Hilary Clinton) or Bush Sr.’s VP (Dan Quayle).  Just stupid stuff is completely at my fingertips and when I don’t know something or just want to learn about something, it’s just a keyboard away.  I’m completely honest that my history is awful and I usually just reason “who really cares?”  But it’s more the big picture that to understand situations and make decisions, it’s better to have more information then less.  Sort of off reasoning from my original posing of a question but I think it’s somewhat related.
• Just caring more.  Instead of plopping down in front of the TV watching the Jersey Shore, opening books or learning about something constructive has to have much more impact on my future.  Sure it’s awesome to know if Vinnie is banging Snooki but in the bigger picture, this won’t have much impact.  I will still watch it more but finding a passion or hobby of something you really like to do is how one can become successful.

That’s it.  Simple things that I’ve arrived at after 27 years of this Earth.  Aside from getting into a more constructive daily routine, that’s all I got.  I’ll keep you posted.

First let me describe what I have to go through to get back into form.  After waking up 10 times in 45 minute intervals last night trying to sleep and waking up in cold sweats or hot flashes, I had a rough night sleeping (I think pregnant women only get hot flashes).  I spend today wishing I was someone else at work and literally drinking as much water as possible because these ill feelings are brought on by dehydration.   When I got back home I literally sat in front of the TV complaining because you need people to know you feel like shit so they don’t bother you.  I watched Cool Runnings and felt inspired by it.  I’ve seen this movie before but certain parts brought on chills.  Specifically the part when Junior tells Yul he can live in Buckingham palace if he sets his mind to it and the ending scene is obviously moving.  Just a good all around movie.

When Junior is looking in front of the mirror with Yul Brenner and Yul asks what do you see and he can’t reply and Yul steps in and says “I see pride, I see power, I see a bad mother who don’t take no crap from no one.”  So after another year down the drain I looked in the mirror.  I still have a deformed lip from the 13 stitches that occurred 6 months ago.  I don’t think people can see it so well but I notice it everyday and try living with something like that and it’s just not fun knowing that people probably are like “wtf is on your lip.”  So we will tally up 2010 as another year of something moronic I did when I was wasted.  I also notice my now 5 teeth capped after re-breaking the capping on two that I previously broke.  This whole debacle set me back 5k and unfortunately the lesson still hasn’t been learned.  It’s sort of a shame too because I do other things well like keeping in good shape and function properly at work.  My diet is still pretty poor but it doesn’t seem to have such a negative effect on my life.   The New Years Resolution “to start being good at things,” becomes the titles of this post.

I couple of New Years goals that come to mind:

• Breaking 60 minutes in the 10 mile Broad Street Run.  I was just under 61 in 2009.  A dud last year at 62+.

• Playing a sub 80 round of golf.  I hit 84 from the blues at Bucks County this year and if I just put forth the effort to practice, this is still a stretch.  Putting and chipping specifically need work to make this a reality as my driving gives me an absolute shot at this goal.

• How about being a viable scoring option in Basketball.  My inability to shoot or make lay ups is honestly a complete waste of growing up playing basketball.  Devoting some time to hitting the gym and getting in pick up games is really all this takes.

• Weighing in at 170 would be losing a few pounds that is only there because I consume 30 beers a weekend.  To think how much even better shape I would be in if I took care of my body is really something I’m considering at my final few years of peak athleticism.

• Not losing a single dollar at a casino or sports gambling?!?  This goal is also eaten alive by alcohol consumption but at my age of 27, I’ve completely learned that there is no money to be made doing this and to think otherwise is kidding yourself.

• And this goal, as easy as it may seem, to get through weekend #1 sober.  I’m confident I can make it through Wed & Thurs but a full thru to Friday and Saturday is such a rare occurrence, that I might just do it to do it and see what type of lifestyle accustoms it.

I can’t really explain why but when I woke up on New Year’s Day, I felt like a million bucks.  No hangover, no ill feelings, just felt awesome.  Awesome is the new word of the year by the way.  Now comparing that day to yesterday and slowly  creeping into today, we have a different story.  After going to the bar in the afternoon with Hafer, Hetrick, the Sheee, CK4, Jkash to watch the PSU game, I think I had 3 or 4 shots of scotch-whiskey and a couple of beers.  Then went back to the apt and slept till 8 and then started playing beer pong, then went to Mad River where I was getting double Rum and Cokes and as Chad can give an eye witness, I wasn’t making it back without his help.  So I woke up yesterday feeling like death and that has pretty much continued into this morning.  I went to sleep at 9:30 last night and even that wasn’t enough to make me feel better.

As the title states, I’m going to see how long I can go without drinking for a while to see if I can restore some order to my dysfunctional life.  The last entry I wrote was on Wednesday so I guess I have to at least update on a few things that have taken place.  Thursday I found some random girl to make out with but nothing else transpired, not even a number.  Friday was New Years and we had some people over.  Jeff and Sam came over with their GF’s which was a pleasant surprise.  Rock stopped by too which is good because we don’t see each other very often.  The night went off pretty much without a hitch aside from people coming in and trying to take a bottle, but I wasn’t involved.  That brings me to where I started writing in paragraph 1.   I made contact with the 38 year old an sent some retard text messages like “do you want to ride and train” and “are you wearing crotchless panties” so I’m pretty sure that’s not going anywhere.  I think it was a joke to begin with anyway as getting myself involved in a situation like that is ludicrous.

Blog traffic reverted to it’s previous ways and there will be no selling out.  My life needs to get back on track after a while of goofing around.  I may try to just lock myself in my room and only going out to go to the gym.  We’ll see what happens this weekend and if I can even pull off the Jkash cleanse.  I know it’s best for me and you’d think eventually I’d be able to live a normal, sober life but it hasn’t happened.  I know this has also been a pretty random, everywhere post with no real content but I’m just not in the right state of mind to be entertaining or exciting.  So that’s it.

I’m writing this entry for the Sheee who is stuck at work on Christmas Eve. Yesterday he asked “why am I the only one who has to work on Christmas eve?” Like a dick, I answered “because your a peasant.” He brushed it off but I’m not insensitive to other people and no one like to be called a peasant. Bottom line Sheee, you work for one of the most respectable banks on the planet and even if they grind you tooth and nail, it’ll become a prestigious position. Much more recognizable than an employee at Stortz Tools. So just so you know I respect the position and the amount of time that goes into working there.

Now, I got ridiculously wasted last night at Mad River because I didn’t have to work today. Kristen and the Noise was playing and I love Kristen. She has a tight body and can sing amazingly. She doesn’t quite top Sofia Vergera on my list of girls I love but I wouldn’t say no if anyone asked me to see them. Lindsay, my #1, shared with Lauren, was working and this is another girl I love. Mad River gets expensive after there specials and it’s nice to know someone working there who knows how to make a good mind eraser. I actually did an experiment of taking a Vitamin B supplement to help cure a hangover and the dehydration factor and it barely worked. I still woke up at 12:30 and didn’t know how I got to my bed. I think I remember having fun…

Today is Christmas Eve and I have nothing to do. I bought all my presents and am considering going to the Gym to play some BBall even though I’m not exactly feeling up to it. Maybe I’ll go home and spend time with my family because it’s that time of the year. To all the people who read my blog, thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoy writing it. Thanks again.