We don’t have a lot of time on this earth. We weren’t meant to spend it this way. Human beings were not meant to sit in little cubicles staring at computer screens all day, filling out useless forms and listening to eight different bosses drone on about mission statements.

If you work 5 days a week for a paycheck, you will feel this way at some point in your life. It’s unavoidable. You spend 5 days a week spending your time earning a living. Then you get 2 days to do things that you like to do. Then you spend 5 days providing. 2 days off. It’s the same routine for the next 40 years. This is what life is for the majority of us. Here’s an idea, get a family. Doing this basically consumes more of your time and puts even additional pressure on working. Having a family basically means that you have to work even more! I just don’t believe that I was mysteriously (this word and sentence is a whole separate topic) put into my body to work all my life. I have the ability to just Peter Gibbons it and do nothing but I wouldn’t be able to sustain that and would probably self destruct somewhere along the way.

I see why people turn to the lord for guidance. It’s to fill a void that can’t be filled any other way. I promise you I’m not filling that void by going to the gym and watching episodes of Breaking Bad even though it’s what I truly like doing. How do you fill the void? People fill it with drugs, alcohol, hobbies, television, movies, music, charity, anything that keeps you busy. The lord is just a symbol. He’s not really there but he gives you hope and a path which helps people achieve goals in life to better themselves. What’s it all for? To live up to the most potential you can as a human being. By being a good friend, a good family member, a good person.

At the 10 year class reunion I was getting tired of answering the same question of “how are you” with normal answers so I answered once with “just waiting to die.” Most likely my death won’t be for another 50 years but that feeling of what are you doing with yourself is just so evident. We all can’t be Bono or Angelina Jolie and save the world. People get worn down by this daily routine then it starts to become impossible to escape. You become a slave to your money and you die (taken from The Verve). You just need to take a step back and enjoy life. You can’t take life so seriously. The strange thing is I wouldn’t even classify this as a down point in my emotions. I feel great physically and I have no suffering currently. I just get tired and question what is happening with life in general. You should to.