After 17 days after breaking my ankle, today is the first day I feel I can at least put pressure and walk comfortably. This is still with the walking boot but with no assistance I can place one foot in front of the other with a bit of a limp. After a while of doing this though I noticed the foot start to tingle so it’s better off if I continue to give it time to heal. At least I know that the healing process is fine and I should be able to walk again within a week. I honestly don’t care if doctors say 6-8 weeks because this has been long enough and I’m starting to get tired of doing nothing. If I feel no pain, I don’t believe that I am doing further damage to the break. However, don’t freak out and start scolding me for not listening to orders, I’m still crutching around and will stay off of it as long as I can.

So the way I see it, I have 1 more full week until I can really do things again. I have a dr’s appointment next Wed and hopefully he will give me the green light for no more boot. Once I can walk I can finally start going to the gym and at least using the elliptical. This is easily the longest time since grade school of not exercising for me which is really starting to get to me. I notice small changes in my body basically expanding, a kinder word for getting fat. That just doesn’t jive with my way of living and I can’t wait to get back at it. I actually find the motivation from not doing anything to make me work harder to get back to where I was physically. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise because it gave me a chance to consider how lucky I am to be gifted with what I have and you never really know how much longer you’ll have them.

I’m just really getting tired with the monotony of Online Poker. Aside from going to work, where I’m barely able bodied to do anything, this has become me. I think I have proven to myself that I can beat the game. I final tabled 2 more 180 man tournaments last night and have been trying the master the push/fold recommended by SNGWiz. What it does though is takes my time. I’m devoting the majority of my free time (due to lack of alternatives) to this activity. I’m making what some consider decent money but it’s really just pocket change in the long run. It makes me feel that I at least cover my casino and sports gambling losses with poker winnings. The real problem is that the activity requires no physical ability and it isn’t conducive to being healthy. My health at the moment is at an all time low. I eat only fried foods, no exercise, and eat junk food whenever I want. Makes me sick. I can’t wait to end this phase of my life and learn from this experience.

That’s a picture of the swelling that a broken ankle will do to you. Here’s a post describing the ER experience. Safe to say I’m out for any type of athletics for the next 6 weeks, most likely 3+ months. I received some texts and emails asking why I’m slacking on my posts and the easy answer is that handicapped people tend to do things slower. This whole process is pretty much a nightmare as it slows me down considerably at work and any type of cardio exercise is not happening. Meaning my Broad Street run is out the window which really sucks. It also means over these next 6 months I’m probably going to get fat due to lack of exercise which is going to make me have to eat healthier to compensate.

The one thing I’ve noticed is that random people take pity for a cripple. Everyone always tries to move out of the way or they say excuse me. I’ve never received this kind of treatment in my entire life. I also notice that people say it can be a good time to gather your thoughts and think about things but I have to admit I can tell I’m going to get bored and this is only day 3. I have a meeting with a specialist tomorrow who can shed further light on the situation like what to expect in the future. The reality is that I should be able to come up with more blog posts then ever due to lack of things to do. I went to work today for 3 hours or so and just the moving around and the constant action was agitating my ankle so I know that I have to cut back on that in the future. This pretty much eliminates all activities for me for a while but I’m going to hope to turn this into a positive and maybe fix a few things in my life. Aside for devoting more time to my blog I also get the chance to catch up on reading which I’m going to look forward to. I apologize to anybody who interacts with me for athletics or social events because I’m pretty much going to be living in a cave moving forward.

A few things that bother me from the micro perspective. The crutches smell like hospital which means every time I have to go somewhere I have this smell lingering and then I have to wash my hands and that starts to dry them out because they are getting washed so much. Also showering is nearly impossible because I can’t get this splint wet. With that being said I haven’t showered since Sunday night. I’m actually going home to take a bath which really disgusts me but I don’t have any other choices. I can’t wear jeans properly because they don’t fit over the splint so I’m forced to wear these nylon pants which makes me feel like I’m supposed to be exercising non-stop. Even the little things like hopping around gets bothersome because using the crutches for every movement isn’t fun either. Just finding places to put the crutches is difficult because they have such bad balance and they insta-fall and since they are like 5 ft tall they start hitting anything in the area. This experience will certainly make me appreciate having two legs to a further extent.