No that is not meant to be masturbation. I’m just going to write about the last 4 entries I transcribed and hope to give people an idea of how I view myself 3 years ago. I honestly hope that the people who read those past few entries can get a good idea of how stupid I was and how you don’t want to be like me. Now, I’m still pretty stupid but I have matured so much since 3 years ago. First of all, I was so careless with my money. I want to make sure everyone is aware that the market was near it’s peak around this time and I had no idea what I was getting into when I was buying stocks. My basic philosophy was everything goes up and the market is a great place to make money. Once 08′ hit and I got a large chunk of money wiped away, you start to wise up and realize that maybe this game isn’t as easy as it seems.
I also notice how much money I would spend at on sports gambling and casinos. This is somewhat of a sad thing to write but I was making way more money back in 07′ then I am now. That’s sort of what comes with running your own family business, that when the revenue takes a hit, you aren’t a salary employee and your pay goes down with the sales. I’ve pretty much wiped out casinos and sports betting 3 years later. I still will do it but not nearly to the extent of my younger days. I was really a wild man. I had no appreciation of money but that was the situation I was in for that time. I just read these entries and shake my head about how dumb I was.
I also think it’s funny how I thought I was in such good shape physically. Modern day TC would blow younger TC out of the water. I have a better mentality now towards training and staying in shape then I did then. My near 60 time in the 10 miler came in 09 which was when I was getting serious about training. For some reason I seemed to get more motivated as the years progress to beat old times. Mainly that just comes from doing more work and I have all the time in the world to make it happen.
The great thing is though that at 27 I have all that experience. I’m able to share all that information with you through my blog so you can get a good idea of what I’ve been through. The great thing about it all is that after reading some of those posts, I can tell that I was heading no where fast. I really feel that I’m starting to pull my life together. I have countless stories and ridiculous experiences but this as you can tell, I wasn’t this reflective when I was 24. I’ve really grown a lot and I feel that inside of me. It’s one of those things that you can’t be the best person you can be without going through some bad times. I’ve had quite a few bad times both financially and physically and I believe I’m starting to come through. I actually laugh at myself after reading these old posts because it was still me back then, and I just look at things from a different point of view now. It’s really a pretty cool thing. I also think it’s funny that I really haven’t changed all that much and still do some of the same shenanigans. Now I just know I’m moron where as back then, I thought it was the cool thing to do.